Saturday, February 19, 2011

labrador par

the capacity of my brain at the moment seems frustrated with the idea an concept of money. i think i am going to quite my job at starbucks i mean its a great place but with school and the projects, i just don't think i can handle. i am not making any money working there anyway. it's tough keeping up with blogger. ill probably delete this content later. but later.

Friday, January 7, 2011

it's 2011, finally!

'b' alphabet tote; urban outfitters, caramel popcorn; garrett's popcorn

Happy New Year! I've been busy trying to pry ideas for projects since break started. At midnight between 2010 and 2011, I was painting my walls white over the ugly purple but I'm thinking of getting a brighter white. The one i got was a bit dull. I really need a hair cut, school's been keeping busy and my hairstylist no longer works at the salon ): so my fringe's been getting in the way and most of the time i'm chewing my hair instead of my food. Turqioise dip-dye tips would be a nice change.

Anyway, i've been thinking about revamping the blog to something cleaner. It seems messy. But it is such a pain to resize all the photos. sigh...

Monday, December 13, 2010

under the tree

christmas shopping :)

can't imagine! these things are already on their way over. golly gee, i'm so delighted. well, this is only like my second time online shopping internationally so it's really cool. and i finally got a new backpack so i can return the old beat up white backpack i've been using back to my brother.

on friday, i went to hmv and got like ten dvds. i've watched about half by now but the region code is really getting to me so i think i'm going to get a tv and dvd player in my room. by my bed there is this pile of dvds and i think it's not long before they topple over. ha ha.

bleeeh. i just started sniffing again. damn the weather!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

wooly season

my novice knitting work!

i'm so happy! i managed to learn how to knit using youtube videos despite my impatience. ha ha. this is wonderful when christmas is just around the corner!! i can't make a sweater yet but i think i can make a short scarf for everybody! hmm... what colours should i choose? black (ha ha, i know but it's sort of fast becoming my favourite colour), red, green, blue, white, etc! so many pretty christmas colours hee hee 8D

my little brother has started working at starbucks too but he's having trouble. it's quite funny that i'm working there actually. it kinda defies things i believe in. sigh.. oh wells, its at least providing funding for my graduate schooling. i'm not sure what i want to do yet though.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

a lovely by jane lui

Jailbird - Jane Lui

She's an amazing singer. The first song I heard by her was a cover of Just The Way You Are, the original by Bruno Mars. It was incredible and so I searched. I found her website through a slew of websites so I won't bother because if I did, just imagine how many words that'd take! I shudder- I dare not imagine.

turning eighteen in october

Trying to do my research paper was killing my brain cells and I wasn't feeling very good so I did a spoof introduction about myself that turned into a strange story into what I felt about growing a year older last month.

oh welly boots, enjoy!

Hi, my name is Bridget Jeanne. I just turned 18 last month. According to the local legal system, I am legal and I can buy alcohol and cigarettesn as much as I would like and watch M18 movies. I am really pleased about expanding my film horizon. Once upon a time, I did look forward to drinking alcohol. You see, I didn’t really like myself or what I did (to be honest, what I hadn’t done) and so I thought alcohol was the solution to all my problems. I would drink and all my inhibitions would fall apart and finally, I would be a free woman but alas, things aren’t always as they seem. The first time I drank, I turned very red and my face let out a funny warm feeling. It wasn’t bad but it good either. The second time was after a rehersal for a production, I didn’t do very well that day and I was down so I went to the stupid 7-11 at the station and bought a can of Japanese peach liquor that only contained a neglible amount of alcohol. My face turned red within minutes and I felt completely sober at the end of the can. I rode home, my dad driving the car. Once my dad had dropped my friend off at her house, I slept like I hadn’t slept in months- no, years. I suffer from terrible, terrible spouts of insomnia. Anyway as I was saying, I slept really deeply. I reached hope, dwasn’tragged myself to my bed only half-awake and collasped on the bed without showering or even changing my clothes- something I did for the first time. I awoke in a daze at 3 in the morning, rolled on the floor because I felt like barfing and I don’t like the feeling of barfing and the icy cold sensation of the floor always made that feeling better and in more cases than one, put the idea off from my stomach. Ever since then, I have ingrained into my brain that alcohol in asians equals to redness on the face, a funny warm sensation and barfing. It does nothing good to those without the stupid enzyme, the one that breaks down the stupid ethanol quick enough. Basically, the moral of the story is that alcohol doesn’t solve your problems because you are still stupidly sober at the end of the day.

Smoking? I could never be bothered. I didn’t want to die of lung cancer, golly gee, no way. Though I did have a dream about smoking and liking it but this only heightened my fear of cigarettes and the second-hand smoke.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

something that makes me happy

my dream backpack.

my backpack got messed up last semester and i'm using my crumpler laptop bag instead. it's really horrid when i can't put stuff it or it'll look as if its about to explode ):

a lot of things have been happening and in all the mess, i'm beginning to lose sense of myself and whether i am proud of the person i have become. its quite an empty feeling. i don't want to wallow in this but i've got so many things to do that i can't really do the things i want.

i want to paint, make a short film and have fun. heh. i know it sounds a little cheesy but i really do want to do that! :)